NEGATIVE AS FUCK:

My grandmother is in critical condition and in excrutiating pain all over the place and im tired of sitting around a fucking hospital proving these doctors wrong and feeling smarter then them im tired of them patting me on the back i should be fucking patting them on theirs.. Shes fucking 88 years old.. you do NOT drug the fuck out of an elderly woman with opiates thats retarded and pain meds dont do shit but mask pain.. once you stop taking the meds the pain is still there you need to do it the MARIJUANA WAY and distract her from it!! im not saying give my possibly dying grandmother pot.. im saying conversate with her and just keep her distracted from the pain and as ive constantly been proving it works better than putting her half unconcious and turning her brain to mush!  I got her laughing for christ sake my mom said she hasnt even hardly been able to crack a smile in 3 months…  Im no doctor and i dont know shit about whats going on with her physically, but i do know that audio therapy beats constant opiate dosage by a long shot and doctors at a hospital this “phenomenal” should be the ones making me look out of my profession…

THINGS THAT ARE GOOD: 

On a better note this trip has been fantastic and the fact that ive been able to keep myself level headed is like a blessing in disguise.  Having my own available vehicle is awesome i have a beautiful beach 10 minutes down A1A to clear my head, and a gorgeous girl i was able to spend the night with and help me piff the fuck out myself and numb the worries was something that i probably couldnt have made it through without.  My moms been taking me to my favorite places to eat and tomorrow night i get to take her to her favorite place for my last night here and a pre mothers day dinner that i wont get to spend with her.  i dunno i havent written on here in a while cause i stopped caring about tumblr but heres my big ass rant about where i am as of right now.  If life wasnt as beautiful as it has been to me i wouldnt have the mental power to guide my grandma in the right direction cause my mom wont listen to doctors for shit and neither will my grandma but theyll both listen to me.  Sorry for the rant.. now to light this spliff kick it back and drink a brew with the momski